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Monday, August 22, 2016

don't forget

i think i should change this blog name to #dayoffchronicles, or #prenightshift, or #postnightshift, since half of my life seems to revolve around that hahah

things to do
1) claim weekend shifts/ taxi fares
2) study for mcem
3) study for emed
4) do some form of physical exercise today
5) korean trial class on fri!
6) apply for TL. go for us courses (looking forward to it! :):))

wishlist
1) buy more korean books
2) buy murakami books
3) fly to korea and learn korean
4) MISSION TRIPS!!!!!!!!!!! (sorry for the emphasis. this is a longstanding dream that has yet to come to fulfilment. although if i were to go on one now/ in the next few yrs, i would be MUCH more helpful than as a wideeyed inmature secondary sch student, which is when i initially first wanted to go. like when js was saying "no what, you can do t&s, i&d, gp work, quite useful what!" i tell you never felt happier at that moment. although he was talking abt drs without borders as mo level. haha. same happiness. KEEP ON GOING, KEEP SWIMMING, WE CAN DO THIS!!)
5) sign up for runs. just waiting for the route maps. currently i want to do great eastern and kiv scms? but i think scms a bit hard since mcem is THREE DAYS AFTER. maybe i shld start with 10k since it takes uhh 45mins to run a 5+km route nowadays. i used to run 8k in 45mins in jc!! sobs
6) baking. well would be nice but i think it takes too much effort. and i dont feel like there is anyone to give my rainbow infused products to. (sorry world, teenage angst yo)

~
i think what really gets to me, is that here i am, trying to look for the light at the end of the neverending tunnels. surrounded by darkness, trying to glow in the dark, usually unsuccessfully. trying to find all the starfish and jellyfish in my life to help me. and just when the darkness seems like it's going to close in forever, you come in and turn off all the sources of light. and not even metaphorically, you leave me stranded in the darkness. but i'm not afraid. ive saved many starfish in this lifetime, and i intend to save many more. i've fallen into pitch darkness many times over & dolphins have come to save me. 

i don't have to agree, but i can save myself from this darkness. i will. i will pick myself up from the depths of the center of the earth. i will glow in the dark and i will never, ever, agree to ANYTHING that prioritises dark over light. 

in this life that we have, light will win over dark. 
& i will do EVERYTHING in my power to ensure, that light wins. 
when i come to the end of myself, and i can't do that, when all the doors have closed and there is not even a single ray of hope left, then i know, that God will send a starfish to save me. He will open a window for me. He will teach me how to breathe underwater. He will pass me a scuba mask and oxygen supply. He will show me how to reach the surface. 
because i believe in this, that's why i can survive each day. 


Sunday, August 21, 2016

this isn't it

singing along to this song karokestyle is somehow very therapeutic when life isnt quite goin the way you want HAHA
BUT THIS ISN'T IT, THIS ISN'T IT, THIS ISN'T IT
i know this is only teenage angst but the problem is im no longer a teenager. oops. 
i realize that everytime i feel pissed like this i tend to make very strange life decisions. like the time i suddenly decided to change flats out of nowhere in yr 2. i really dont know why i made that decision to this day if u ask me actually?? 
i think i shld just give it all up, and fly to korea to learn korean at sogang. 
except i do have a bond. but i guess i cld take no pay leave. 
and just travel around the world forever. 
but actually work isnt the problem right? 
i guess in the end, you cant run away from yourself. 
you can fly anywhere in the world and be anything but in the end, the one place you can't run from is yourself. 
eh why is this post so angsty. all i wanted to say is that early morning belting out taeyang's song makes me feel happy actually. HAHA. 


Friday, August 19, 2016

daily dose of murakami

“Sometimes when I look at you, I feel I'm gazing at a distant star.
It's dazzling, but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago.
Maybe the star doesn't even exist any more. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything.”
― Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun

“If you can love someone with your whole heart, even one person, then there's salvation in life. Even if you can't get together with that person.”
― Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

“In everybody’s life there’s a point of no return. And in a very few cases, a point where you can’t go forward anymore. And when we reach that point, all we can do is quietly accept the fact. That’s how we survive.”
― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

“Sometimes I feel so- I don’t know - lonely. The kind of helpless feeling when everything you’re used to has been ripped away. Like there’s no more gravity, and I’m left to drift in outer space with no idea where I’m going’
Like a little lost Sputnik?’
I guess so.”
― Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart

“As time goes on, you'll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn't, doesn't. Time solves most things. And what time can't solve, you have to solve yourself.”
― Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance

“If you're in pitch blackness, all you can do is sit tight until your eyes get used to the dark”
― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood
“Even if we could turn back, we'd probably never end up where we started.”
― Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

"Even castles in the sky can do with a fresh coat of paint."

— South of the Border, West of the Sun

“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.” – Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

“If you remember me, then I don’t care if everyone else forgets.” – Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn’t something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn’t get in, and walk through it, step by step. There’s no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That’s the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You’ll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” – Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

“For me, running is both exercise and a metaphor. Running day after day, piling up the races, bit by bit I raise the bar, and by clearing each level I elevate myself. At least that’s why I’ve put in the effort day after day: to raise my own level. I’m no great runner, by any means. I’m at an ordinary – or perhaps more like mediocre – level. But that’s not the point. The point is whether or not I improved over yesterday. In long-distance running the only opponent you have to beat is yourself, the way you used to be.”
― Haruki Murakami, What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

punch

beautiful song from the punch ost
jeon inkwon and dok2 
You told me that I know so little of the world
With a bit of a worried look
With a bit of a sorry smile
Yes, I probably don’t know the world
I have left for this long journey alone
But I have no regrets
All the dreams that made me cry and laugh

That is my world
No one easily believed in my dream
So I couldn’t throw it away, I held it even closer
Even if reality is different, I didn’t live any differently

Even if I couldn’t see it, it was growing inside me
Now I think it’s spreading before me, my world is in front of me
If someone asks me, I would answer without hesitation
I’m always the same, I never regret

I’m doin me and I’m proud of it
So you could never doubt that 100 tho
I left for a long journey, with countless changes and mistakes
The long loneliness and scars haven’t healed yet
But I’ve gotten used to it and matured when I came back
So I am going toward a better tomorrow once again
The small dream and trust now is the start of a bigger future

Even if it’s weak, it will be worth it
So if I clash against the world, I’ll just take a break and run again
I just need to make hard things easy, I’m good

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

there must be something i can do (& this is it)

Everyone tells me to close my eyes when darkness comes
That nothing has changed, that it’s always like this
Everything will be forgotten and maybe only you’ll be the one who’s hurt
But if you can still feel it after you ignore it and turn your head
There must be something
There must be something
There must be something I can do
There must be something
When it seems to be nothing

I need to find that something
Maybe it’ll be really easy, there’s nothing to fear
It’s about sharing the sadness, it’s about holding hands
It’s about lending an ear to angry shouts and counting them as precious
If you believe that small movements can make big miracles
I hope people who are in love won’t lose each other anymore and smile
I pray that this song will be a small light for the hurting hearts
There must be
There must be
such a beautiful song. today my shred of light at the end of darkness is HARUKI MURAKAMI. after all these years ive still never bought any of his books. i shld probably start now
some quotes:
"And it came to me then. That we were wonderful travelling companions but in the end no more than lonely lumps of metal in their own separate orbits. From far off they look like beautiful shooting stars, but in reality they’re nothing more than prisons, where each of us is locked up alone, going nowhere. When the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross paths, we could be together. Maybe even open our hearts to each other. But that was only for the briefest moment. In the next instant we’d be in absolute solitude. Until we burned up and became nothing." - Sputnik sweetheart 
There has to be an end somewhere. It’s just that nothing’s labeled ‘This is the end.'
"After a certain length of time has passed, things harden up. Like cement hardening in a bucket. And we can’t go back anymore."
"We cannot simply sit and stare at our wounds forever. We must stand up and move on to the next action."
"How long will it take me to get used to this?"
"It's not a question of time. When it comes, you'll already be used to it."
:)

Monday, August 15, 2016

under the sky

sometimes it seems like life is just giving one a tiny little shred of hope. light at the end of the very very very long tunnel.

i guess i just want to say that after all these years, after probably finally coming to the end of myself a thousand times over, being jaded beyond belief, after all the crazy experiences thus far, i dont really expect or want much more from this life

... except the chance to have a few more crazy experiences. or maybe do this forever.

haha what can i say im an adrenaline junkie

i love it when i realize i can do much more than i thought i could

thank you God for the lights at the end of the tunnel. i will keep on learning from everything & go as far as You want me to go.

there is no fear in love; perfect love drives out fear

Sunday, August 14, 2016

begin again



"Begin Again" - jason gray

This one goes out to you
If you gave all you had and it wasn't enough
It goes out to you
If you're afraid you've failed everybody you've loved
It goes out to you
If the ties that bind are coming undone
And you're so tired that you wanna give up

There's never been a night so long…
There's never been a life too far gone
When you come to the end, you can begin again

This one goes out to you
When you got the call and it wasn't good news
It goes out to you
When there's nothing more that you can do
It goes out to you
When everything sad isn't coming untrue
And every dream you chased got away from you

Arise, my love, the winter's past, the spring has come!
He makes all things beautiful in time
After the fire, what remains is the love that will not change
And makes all things beautiful in time

It's never too late for a new start
If you give God the pieces of your broken heart
When you come to the end, you can begin again

~
this guy actually wrote a whole album on "how God can shine His light the brightest in the broken places of our lives, that our meaning still comes from the joy & hope we have in Christ instead of what we may feel on a daily basis". so amazing. seriously.

when every dream you chased got away from you/ when you come to the end, you can begin again

Saturday, August 13, 2016

where the light gets in/ nothing is wasted

"I Will Rise Again"

It was like somebody knew the perfect plan to break my belief
Take me piece by piece till my faith was all but gone

It knocked me down so far that I couldn't get up 
but face down in the dirt I heard the voice of love 
saying do not fear, you won't be here for long

I will rise again, I will rise again
I believe I believe that I had to break
So love could make me whole 
I'm not who I was, You won't recognize me
Love came down and redefined me
And piece by piece put me back together differently 

But I will rise again, stronger in the end
I believe I believe in a brand new day
A love that saves so I can say
I will rise again

~
snippets of life:
just another day that i am thankful for the people that believe in me. and for pokemon in my gym. as in in my real life gym!

when the senior suddenly popped up today we were SO THANKFUL. m really looked like he wanted to hug him hahaha.

the other day halfway through presenting my cases during handover the consultant suddenly asked me "e are you christian?" LOL so random. but so heartwarming to think abt it now

been having some really nice meetups with friends lately :) tiongbahru with a, japfood with d. thank you God for sending these pple into my life. i would have combusted a loooooong time ago without them.

~
"Glow In The Dark"

Sometimes the world feels like a mess
Full of drama, full of stress
And life puts a fist right in your ribs
You can hide if you choose to
And no one would even blame you
Or you can let them see how you deal with it

That even in the darkest place
His love can make you radiate

Doesn't matter how deep, how dark the night is
Keep hoping, keep on shining
And they'll see His light burning in your heart
And if the road gets rough, just keep your head up
Let the world see what you're made of
That His love's alive in your deepest parts
Like a flame, like a burning star you can shine right where you are
He made you to glow in the dark

Don't be ashamed of your past
If you're shattered like a piece of glass
The more broke you are the more the light gets through
Show your wounds and your flaws
Show them why you still need the cross
Let them see the work He's doing in you

"Nothing Is Wasted"

The hurt that broke your heart
And left you trembling in the dark
Feeling lost and alone
Will tell you hope's a lie
But what if every tear you cry
Will seed the ground where joy will grow

And nothing is wasted
Nothing is wasted
In the hands of our Redeemer
Nothing is wasted

It's from the deepest wounds
That beauty finds a place to bloom 
And you will see before the end
That every broken piece is
Gathered in the heart of Jesus
And what's lost will be found again

From the darkness
Glory will shine
Glory will shine
~

looking back on the past few years, this song rings really true. nothing is wasted.
i can see where God is leading me, it just looks like a really really crazy road to reach there
but this i know

at the end, even if i dont get every single check box ticked on this to do list of life, i think im ok
anyway, i already achieved what my sixteen year old self most wished. hahah.
at the end, as long as i learn how to do this stuff properly, it's all good 

Friday, August 12, 2016

thank you for everything/ glow in the dark

"Thank You For Everything"

Thank you for the world that awakes
In the dawning light that breaks
And for the sunlight kissin' my face
Thank You
And for the stars out on parade
At the ending of each day
So even in the dark I'm sayin' 
Thank you

When I look at the world around me
And breathe in the breath You gave
Every beat of my heart is singing
Thank You for everything
If You lead me to still waters
If I'm caught in the hurricane
Wherever You lead I'm singing
Thank You for everything

Thank You for the gift of friends
Who know everywhere I've been
And love me back home again
Thank You
And for the ones who let me down
And taught me what I know now
Of forgiveness and the freedom I've found
Thank you

Thank You for the hardest parts
And the beauty of these scars
~

something running thru my mind during my ___ shift ytd was a list of small mercies to be thankful for
- for the nurse who offered to take the renal panel for me (literally running after me to say "dr its ok i will take!) - i could have hugged her
- nat for telling me to go eat lunch and going to grab lunch tgt (first time ever i have eaten a meal during my ___ shifts. usually i dont eat OR pu at all the WHOLE SHIFT, get back SUPER HUNGRY and inhale a bowl of whatever may be nearby)
- dr j who was on shift ytd!! wah never felt so relieved to see a familiar face
- the cons who i felt very very scared before approaching them but who actually turned out to be really cool & nice!
- when i finally, finally got blood from this uncle. and before he left, he actually came to find me to thank me (despite the fact that i poked him more than once ><)

and most of all the fact that after calming down & deciding to go through the zillion handover pts and my own new cases slowly and methodically instead of running around like a headless chicken, i still saw around the same number of cases as previous shifts (an unmentionable number hahah), but felt very safe for each of them, and did (i think. i hope) the right things for them. need to go follow up the progress to make sure of that. but at least its nt stuff that keeps me up all night wondering if i did the right thing.

maybe, just maybe, this crazy idea might work out. haha.

thank You for the hardest parts/ & the beauty of these scars

Saturday, August 6, 2016

compass



interesting day with pokemon releasing in sg, first time taking blood from a kid in a while,  buying a new emed book :):), catching pokemon in the mrt on way to buy aforementioned book, coming home & opening the book & on the first page it says in the dedications "To God be all glory"!!!

best day ever. instantly i knew i've made the right choice, no questions about that.

Friday, August 5, 2016

a way to see in the dark

sparrow - jason gray 
You can't add a single day by worrying
You'll worry your life away
Oh don't worry your life away
You can't change a single thing by freaking out
It's just gonna close you in

Oh don't let the trouble win

You may feel alone
But you're not on your own

(chorus)
if He can hold the world He can hold this moment
not a field nor flower escapes His notice
Oh even the sparrow
Knows He holds tomorrow

Lean in and it's hard to miss
Everything can change
When you make it His
Oh He wants to carry it
When you let it go
You'll find that He's enough

There's not a single star that's out of place
There's nothing broken He can't remake
If you long for hope when you're afraid
Oh look at the sparrow

Look at the sparrow

~
how come even a sparrow knows that He holds tomorrow, but sometimes in the dark when you cant see beyond your five fingers, you can't? 
~
"Remind Me Who I Am"

When I lose my way,
Remind me who I am.
In the mirror all I see,
Is who I don't wanna be,
Remind me who I am.
In the loneliest places,
When I can't remember what grace is.

When my heart is like a stone,
And I'm running far from home,
Remind me who I am.
When I can't receive Your love,
Afraid I'll never be enough,
Remind me who I am.
If I'm Your beloved,
Can You help me believe it.
~

"A Way To See In The Dark"

Here I am
Begging for certainty again
But simple trust
Is what you're asking me to give
If I am saved
You tell me it will not be by sight
So when I pray
I'll close my eyes, I'll close my eyes

I'll reach for your hand in the night
When the shadows swallow the light
'Cause I'm giving up, giving in 
Once again a childlike faith
Is my only way
To see in the dark

The question mark
Hung at the end of every fear
Is answered by
The promise that you are with me here
And that's all I've got
When the lights go out and I lose my way
So I'll close my eyes
I won't be afraid, I won't be afraid

If every star falls and the sun fails to rise
If You are my help, my hope and my vision 
One step at a time You will lead

Once again a childlike faith
Is my only way
To see in the dark

To see in the dark
~

"Where We Go From Here"

You never say I told you so,
Even though you told me so,
You just say I am sorry that it hurts,
You forget what I've done wrong,
You can't more about movin' on,
Your grace dances circles around my words

Even when the curtain falls or the lights
Fade to black and I'm afraid it's finished,
It's just beginning you say lift your head,
I'll dry your tears then I'll show you,
Where we go from here [x3]

~

i'm really loving all the music finds on spotify :)
cause im givin' up, givin' up, cause once again a childlike faith is my only way to see in the daaaark~

God? Where do we go from here? should i start this crazy journey tomorrow or today? this year or next? i dont know, i dont have the answers. but thank you for giving them trust in me. even though i dont trust myself sometimes. its good to know that SOMEONE out there believes in me. 

this is a crazy journey, i know. it makes no sense.
if you had asked me to choose this myself, i may not have had. hahaha. only God could have done this to push me out of my comfort zone.
or maybe, probably, the big computer in the sky. yeah, that.

one more month before i need to prove myself.
this sounds awfully familiar. boss sitting in the consult rm on a night shift telling me "when u go up there, u need to hit the ground running"
eh the problem is, i dont think my nature allows me to hit the ground running
i know what it's going to be like already. i'm going to be really noob for awhile, then eventually i'll figure it all out haha. well i HOPE i'll figure it all out.

oh well. i guess i may surprise myself yet. i guess God has never brought me to something that he didn't bring me through, not unscathed, but alive nevertheless. i guess what doesnt kill me can only make me stronger :)
~

"Even This Will Be Made Beautiful, Pt. 2"

Between the thunder and the lightning’s flame
I knew the storm was just a mile away
But it surprised me just the same
When it blew my straw house down

Now standing in the aftermath
With no idea how to build it back
I wonder as I wander through the fields of ash
Is there hope to carry on?

Could this, even this, be made beautiful?

Growing up I was told the sun would always rise
And I believed because I was a child
But now it’s hard to tell the truth from the lies
When the child is fast asleep

Wake up little boy, I need your faith today
I need your innocence to show the way
When I’m too tired to trust that love will save the day
And I need your eyes to see

Even this will be made beautiful
Even this will be made beautiful, beautiful

I know I shouldn’t worry
And I should not be afraid
I want to walk across the water
I want to rise above the crashing waves
But this fear in me is heavy
I’m scared it’s going to pull me down
So please reach out your hand
I don’t want to drown

Even this will be made beautiful, beautiful
Even this will be made beautiful, beautiful

There’s never been a night the morning couldn’t break
Or a heart that wasn’t forged in the fires of its own ache
What’s left after the storm is left for heaven’s sake
For the breaking and remaking of our hearts

~
could this, even this, be made beautiful? 

prayer in a box

today's prayer in a box:

DEAR JESUS,

What if the trials of this life, are your Mercies in disguise?
Amen
" the way you think is not God’s way but man’s" - Matthew 16:13-23

Thursday, August 4, 2016

love alone is worth the fight (is it?)/ all you've ever wanted

I'm trying to find where my place is
I'm looking for my own oasis
so close I can taste this
the fear that love alone erases

so I'm back to the basics
I figure it's time I face this
time to take my own advice

love alone is worth the fight

And I never thought it come to this
but it seems like I'm finally feeling numb to this
the funny thing bout shame is
you forget what the reason you were playing the game is

and It's all an illusion 

a 21st century institution
so I'm heading down the open road unknown
and we find what we're made of
through the open door
is it fear you're afraid of?
what are you waiting for?

we're only here for a season
I'm looking for the rhyme and reason
why you're born why you're leaving
what you fear and what you believe in

why you're living and breathing
why you're fighting it and getting it even

let's go headed down the open road unknown

here we are here we go
where the road is our own
feel it calling you home

here we are here we go
~

Lord i know i've let you down/
but somehow i'll make you proud
i'll turn this sinking ship around
and make it back to you

smoke& mirrors/ night visions

on an imagine dragons kick today heh
this song is fairly inspiring as i navigate the neverending path of learning what literally seems like a new language

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am
~
had a literally epic shift ytd, first time to have epic shift in this part of the posting hahah. but i had a good partner so we survived! i learnt a lot from that day though :)

doing mcem qns online makes me feel at peace with myself HAHA. i think coz its sth i can control. something like gymming. you gym and you KNOW you've done something good for sure. 

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

off day musings

half the time, i have no idea what i'm doing with my life

but this i know, that when i look back on this time of my life, i'm going to see God's hand in all of this & all will be made clear

i'm 100% sure of this.

:)

mugging for mcem makes me realize that in med sch, a lot of the time i was mugging for exams rather than full understanding. *ashamed* well now is the time to learn this stuff! can i do it in 4 months? hahahaha. we'll see. i think that these are useful things to know. i now know the factors stimulating insulin release by heart! i also really enjoy the communal mugging at work. hahah.


Monday, August 1, 2016

dontgiveup

whenever i do shifts at ___ i always save the pts so that later after all the detritus has settled, i can go back and see what happened to them, whether i did the right thing after all, whether my snap decisions/dx were actually accurate

on the bright side... they're all ok! *sigh of relief* 

i guess things all turn out ok... eventually

today is one of those days that you wake up on the right side of the bed, heart full of hope that God is going to make everything okay (eventually), planning out how you're going to study for exams, do LOOOTS of research today, gym, bake cakes, sign up for ultramarathons

something that strikes me is that life itself doesnt deviate much from day to day. what is always changing is the viewpoint from which we see it. it can be really really rose-coloured and exciting, or it can be like a windscreen on a rainy and stormy day (at least where i stay now, there are literally no such things as hailstorms. hahah)

dont know what happened to make today look slightly sunnier than usual. maybe church ytd? or the impromptu tea with a? haha. nevertheless, i'll take sunflowers whenever they come to me :)

~
calling glory - dont give up 
This time your heart said its had enough
Sick and tired of everything that's so messed up
You don't wanna move on just playing games
Praying hard somehow your life will change
When you feel like you don't know what to do
Stuck inside this maze you can't go through

(chorus)
Don't give up
and help is surely on its way
and don't give up
and the dark is breaking in today
and just keep on moving through these storms
and soon enough you'll find the door

just don't give up
oh and don't give up

These walls around you are caving in
And your life seems like it is wearing thin
Your hope is drowning in despair
It looks like you're not going anywhere
Step inside this Heart and then you'll see
Such a love that is so amazing

"Worn"

I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn